i am above your still impressions
smiling at the sight of hearts in love.
this new flare,
is it worth your time?
i gave you so much
then you leave me behind.
the numbers
the figures
all amount
to nothing.
the pushing
the fighting
are beatings to noone
you don't even recognize my smile
and my heart any longer.
i am above you
with you
and a new flare
who seems to smile
a familiar one
a smile i see
each time i stare at myself
in your eyes.
huwaw! it's been one heck of a while! the ice has melted! feels cold to my feet! but not as cold as it used to be.=)
it's GREAT to be back!=)
(kaya ngayon lang ako kasi nalimutan ko yung pasword ko.)
the quiet is calm.
that's all i need..
the quiet.
the calm.
the sun is warm.
it's light
broken in the branches.
i love the touch of warmth on my skin.
that's all i need..
the soothe.
the warmth.
i remember her.
deep in the warmth of her arms.
in the calm of her hands.
the soothe of being next to her.
in the quiet of her memory.
i'll recover soon.
that's all i need right now..
i hoped
for a lot of things.
share moments
with the ones that i love,
and fall in love.
the heat,
the conflict
is hurting me.
still i count my days
hoping for a lot a lot of things.
i tried to resist
but you're hard to battle,
harder still
to forget.
still lovely.
still the best of all the things i'm hoping for.
this will teach me
to wait further.
never to ask
if there really is forever..
i feel the battle
come to it's end.
down to the final people
i have to hold
and bury in memory.
i'll never regret
i'll never forget you.
i sought
for a lot of things.
to live suddenly
and die silently,
falling in love..
i want to be a cloud..
a traveller..
a nomad..
a mask to a beautiful face..
a face filled with stars..
i wish to be blown away..
to places uncharted..
be purposeless..
yet commited to letting little kids imagine..
i want to be a cloud.
so i will never have to fall
deeply in love with ayone..
shuffling my feet over the waves of the sea..
newborn anthuriums stealing kisses from my hand..
they are the offsprings of winter
unmindful to the possibility of death
and the pain of loss..
tonight i'm a ghost..
a phantom in the moonlight..
relaying events
to an audience of stars and my reflection..
alone and bitter..
like her songs..
i listen to the music of the water crashing to stones..
and little pebbles making bautiful dropping sounds..
like a dive from the sky..
a plunge to the abyss..
my body will be a silohuette
when it touches the water..
slow to immerse..
unknown as love's departure..
we stood
staring at each other.
with no words left to say
only tears and whimpers.
'it's almost time'
she said,
'but you will see me again.'
' will i really see you again?'
i asked.
'you don't have to wait'
she said,
'but you can always pray that you will.'
with that i held her words
and let go.
then she turned away,
still so beautiful
and faded slowly in the distance.